The post that isn’t a post…
Today I am determined to post something on my blog. I have been determined to post something, anything, every day for the past week. Determination is not all it is cracked up to be and can be easily diverted I have found. Hence, I sit at my keyboard and begin to type only to find myself writing something else entirely. I am very aware of the need to be writing stories and this need seems to be interfering with my ability to update this blog with anything noteworthy.
What is the problem? No inspiration? No, I think it is lack of Focus.
My head is currently playing host to a myriad of ideas that fight for space. Picture Piccadilly Circus during Rush-Hour. That’s my brain at the moment.
I look at it like this:
In my head, characters bustle around and busy themselves with finding the best spot. They hope I will notice them. They don’t always know where I will look, who I will seek out but they know that look I will.
There is a category in there called, “inspiration” it serves that part of me that likes to sit and laze in the sun (though I am mostly in the shade these days). Inspiration sits up and takes notice when I am feeling particularly thoughtful and it poses ideas that happily break through the sunlight and dance in my brain.
It seems to me that many of my best stories have been written whilst just sitting doing nothing at all. The problem is these stories tend to remain in my head. They have opening lines that would wow you. They have endings that would make you gasp. Where is my notebook? Don’t I keep it on me at all times for just such occasions as all writers should do? Er, well, yes and no. It is definitely a case of “do as I say and not as I do.” Every writer should keep a notebook handy, I agree. Do I? Sometimes. Not good enough is it?
Thankfully, there is another category in my head called, “Save for later.” Here, characters twiddle their thumbs and brush up their plots. They practise their lines as surely as any actor on a stage. Sometimes they manage to squeeze out of their own category and pop up in, “Inspiration” – then there really is a story that gets written down!
Words are stored in my head. They live in glorious disarray most of the time, joining together as and when I please. They are divided, very roughly, into those I use in every day in speech and emails and those that emerge, polished and shining like gems to adorn the page of prose that is sometimes a little over wrought to be honest. Still, if the mood takes me I will use them and admire them for a while before reluctantly returning them to the box marked ‘verbose’.
‘Verbose’ must be my word of the month. Even the way one pronounces it is a little verbose I think. The dictionary quotes it as meaning: “containing an excess of words, so as to be pedantic or boring,”
Yes, ‘Verbose’ deserves to be left alone.
Sometimes I think that all these words spinning round in my head ought to be able to jump out onto the page unasked with no further work on my part but to read them and marvel.
This past couple of weeks, inspiration has been plentiful, time has been short and focus sadly lacking. Things just don’t go according to plan all the time. I sat down yesterday to finish one post but it turned into a short story which I now need to polish and send off to the magazine that I used to write for – well, why not? I have a raft of ideas floating in this brain of mine but I will have to wait until they crash land onto my computer. Ah, there is another thing…computers!
I began a post bemoaning the fate of my laptop but it turned into a rant that turned into an unfinished ‘something’ on the same day, I began a post on people who have inspired me which changed, part way through, to a mini-novel.
So, forgive me while I try to ‘focus’ this brain of mine, normal service will resume as soon as possible!